Some how over the last 10 years or so of searching for myself - I found myself in a place that I least expected. Right back where I started. The search outside of myself led me straight back inside of myself.
In my younger days I attempted to define myself through identifying with music;the clothes I wore; the people I hung around with; the men I dated etc. Through these experiences I came to understand myself more, yet never really felt comfortable with labels like confident, ambitious, quiet, outgoing, glamorous etc.
Through seeking to know myself at the deepest level – IF FOUND ME – THE REAL ME and THE TRUE ME.
The Real Me
This is the me that I had once sought to understand by clothing me in garments, make-up, hair gel, jewellery etc in order to define myself. Underneath all of that the real me waited to be set free. From the confines and chains that I had unknowing placed upon it, because of my fear of discovering a wounded, unwhole me who felt insecure and in need of some serious love.
The True Me
Has always been there and never waited for an excuse to show itself. The true essence of who I am is always seeking to experience itself everyday in every way - regardless of what I choose to hold back.
The True Me loves the Real Me regardless of who I am being, what I am doing or having in life. I now choose to experience and live as the True Me – because I understand the Real Me so, who knows what the next 10 years holds. Confused?? Question me or check back for part 2.
